After a long time.

After a long time, I am back in this space. I intentionally did not pay my dues with my previous web hosting company because I could not contact them. I did not want to pay ghost income to a company that does not show up to their customers even through text or emails. Not really my loss but they kept me guessing. I just decided not to pay my bill once and for all. Yeah, I’m a jerk. I also realized that I need not more to buy anymore web hosting plans because I have already realized that it is an utter waste of money for me. Plus, there are a lot of free blogging services out in the Triple W that can accommodate me if I just really wanted to write down what I want to write. I just decided to come back here because I miss this space and because I’ve grown tired of Wordpress but I really wouldn’t bother to switch to other platforms like Xanga, Blogger or LiveJournal because they don’t appeal to me that much. But i.ph was witness to the first torrent of bullshit and nonsense that I wrote in the Web. Anyway, that is done and over with and I am happy to be back here.

Much has happened between the months from the date that I last tried to compose content and zoom to today. I’m one term away from graduation and I really, really hope that I don’t foil this chance because the repercussions of not nailing it this term is going to be humiliating. I’ve only got three remaining subjects… one of them is my practicum. Doing it, and doing it everyday. I got into this firm in Ortigas. I don’t much love the work that I do there, but I have no choice. I may have lied to one of my office mates there when I told her that I love what I’m doing in the office — making economic-related articles, doing book reviews of books related to the economics of their company. It’s challenging but it also wears and bores me out at times. To be honest with, I can already see myself working there although I still have a dilemma because I really want a better job that I will love.

Another thing: I am able to use the knowhow that my school injected in my mind in this practicum work; however I do not love it at all. Nevermind that they won’t allow downloading or chatting in their company. I can live with that. I just want a job where I can use my talent and that I’ll love. At the back of mind, I wish I had found another practicum work. Sometimes, I think that I’m better off being a corporate slave. There are some advantages, I’ll give that. Being situated in Ortigas and with no IT restrictions, I can download all of the stuff I want to download during free time. I guess that’s their philosophy of making workers inside the office happy. That is something tangible, but I want more.

After a long time, I already know what I want. I want to be happy with what I do. Of course the wage is also a factor because I want to earn a sum of money; but I want to do something that I have a passion with, something that I can be proud with.